All this joy..

All this joy we dearly enjoy,

All this sadness leaves tears in my eyes,

Facing the reality makes life harsh.

There is no happiness near or far.

 

Look upon a sunflower,

Beauty is there if you want to see.

Some are positive, some are negative.

Either way, everything is creative.

 

Connection is hard to build up.

Although, trying feels like winning the fifa world cup.

Losing someone is a part of being a grown up.

Every day, responsibilities urge us to get up.

 

Another good day awaits us.

I see children leaving home in the school bus.

They don’t know what lies ahead.

That is the reason they can be happy with whatever comes in life.

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Green grass looking greener than ever…

Green grass looking greener than ever.
Brightness in the sky like a diamond is shining from heaven.
Smell of fresh air in the atmosphere; vanishes depression.
Cold wind ruffles my hair, I feel alive and I forget about my aggression.

I trudge toward a castle.
I hope it is not a mirage.
I feel awake and energetic, as if someone just gave me a massage.
Heavenly feeling covers me from head to toe.

Am I tired or is it something else?
I do not know.
If I am worried, I promise to myself I won’t let it show.
My throat dries, my muscles cries.
In the middle of a desert, I die.

The sensation is as good as drinking water on a hot sunny day.
I forget about all the worries I possessed once every day.
But I cannot forget my dear loved ones.
I feel relaxed as if I am sleeping on a cloud.
All the outrage fades away, I feel no temptation to shout.

I walk faster than before, no longer trudging to reach my goal.
I can see a light towards the end of that tunnel.
Am I finally entering into heaven?
I walk faster and the tunnel seems so near now.
Just then I walk past through it.
I see my loved ones standing there.

I reach them and open my mouth.
No sound comes out and I am thrown back to an old house.
It looks unpleasant and an eerie look about it frightens me to death.
But even though I am already dead, I am still scared of death.

Maybe I am not dead.
I open my eyes once again.
A twinkling light hits my eyes.
My family looks at me and cries.
I realize I am still alive.
I was so near to death yet I survived.
I am glad; I have another chance to live my life

The day never ends…

Sitting alone, traveling far without a single friend.
This day seems like it’ll never end.
Putting on a mask, I stay calm or rather I pretend.
Scared I am, some people pass their illogical judgment.

Expectations lead to disappointments.
“Forget about everyone” I murmur.
Still I think about them, a soft voice whispers.
Why am I so different? I feel like a stranger.

I am taken aback by reverie.
Maybe I have a best friend within me.
Still, I do get tired of my thoughts occasionally.
This day never ends, I keep wondering.

Shapeless!

Red rose growing in my garden, it looks so beautiful.
Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, saying is something special.
Listening to a symphony, an experience which is magical.
All the traumas I faced, leaves me with a shapeless heart like an amorphous white lead powder.

Give another meaning to life, a thought on which I ponder.
Regularly following the same routine is difficult to handle.
Something new is always out there, just need to look over.
Stop looking at the sky all the time, look down, a bit more lower.

So many people I see, it’s harder than you imagine.
Try to live in the shoes of an introvert.
Maybe my mind is going to detonate.
Only few people are out there, with whom I celebrate.

While the danger was impending, I preferred avoiding.
I started to daydream, treacherous tasks were coming.
I wanted to run to that shimmering shoreline.
A tunnel to my energy and an end to my boredom.

Maybe I am a little bit selfish at times…..

Maybe I am a little bit selfish at times.
Believe me even I don’t like it, I admit that I am guilty of this crime.
I try my best to move on every day, hoping one day I’ll shine.
I keep on writing because nobody would listen, so I need to find a way to smile.
I am full of flaws, I can’t change it but everyone goes through harsh times.
It is just a bad phase which I will have to face,
This is the only way to stay alive.
Sometimes I do feel like I am a maniac.
But then I realize I am just feeling a bit high.
All those drugs I took once in my lifetime,
Certainly going to hurt me like I have been struck by a blow from a sharp knife.
I shout aloud to my inner demons,
Only to realize they’re stronger than me, I can’t do anything, I’ve been beaten.
This invisible ghost, who resides inside me, has completely eaten me up.
I wanted to engage myself in social situations,
In the end I realized they were even scarier.
I need to make my own path now.
Have to be comfortable in my own skin, my new passion is solitude now.
Will never be hard on myself, I vow to myself.
I will be braver than ever, no matter what happens, I’ll never say never.
It’s easier said than done, but I will have to try my best to start a new life,
I want to stop feeling sorry for myself.
I do not want to be alone when I die,
but it is something which is completely out of my hands.
Perhaps, it’s just because I am a bit irresponsible and I never pay much attention.
As I said, I am full of flaws, so there is no need for any correction.
What do I want exactly?
Maybe I am still guessing.
I am so lost at the moment that I cannot feel present in this moment.

I don’t know….

I don’t know what’s happening.

At this point of time, imagination is what I am lacking.

Some days I cannot fight it out,

some days it is so hard to figure everything out.

I try to be as strong as I can be.

I try to make myself visible but you cannot see me.

Sometimes I get ignored and forgotten.

Sometimes I cannot feel I am alive any longer.

Although I know this experience will only make me stronger.

It gets hard to move on, how do I get rid of this monster?

I can relive, invent myself again, I wonder.

Trying my best would be wiser.

As long as I try my best, I know my future will be brighter.

Silence is the best thing as of now for me,

because it’ll make me a fighter without using any violence.

Suspense!

Walking past the narrow alleys, I try to solve this mystery.
The truth of my existence will one day be a history.
As I continue my slow walk,
I try to live in the moment, struck by nostalgia, I look back at the moments we once shared.
Tears of joy in my eyes as I look at my wrist watch.
It’s 1 AM and another day has already gone.

There is no way to stop the biological clock.
One day you’re a kid, the next day an adult, you open your eyes, completely shocked.
Countdown begins, it feels like there is a time bomb.
You’re not alone, everyone feels it, just stay calm.

Surrounded by the suspense of these thoughts, I am.
Is it real or unreal? It won’t last forever, why am I here?
Sometimes I want to hide, maybe even completely disappear.
Go to the Earth 2.0, alas! It’s away from us about 1400 light years.

I’ll look at the sky and smile.
I’ll be lost in the reverie this night and think something in an artistic style.
Until I solve this mystery, I’d be filled with suspense and surprise.
I will feel like there’s no end to this climax.
I have no control over things, it’s like an Airplane has got hijacked.

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Someone out there!

There was a kid, who had no support.
He had a father but he lacked a dad.
He looked for someone who’d bring some fun and don’t make him sad.
Someone who’d teach him how to play soccer and make birthday plans.
A person who’d gift him a cricket or a baseball bat.

He looked for someone who’d give him a pat on his back.
Someone who could guide him on the right track.
A person who could gift him a toy whenever he got mad.
Someone who could read him bedtime stories before taking a nap.

He looked for someone on whom he could rely upon.
A person on whose shoulders he could lean on.
Someone, who’d just for him, sing a song.
A perfect role model who would play with him on a bright sunny day on a lawn.

Sadly, he looked for someone who was never there.
He realized there was not a single person who actually cared.
He had to carry on, doesn’t matter how much he was scared.
He had a big heart, all his happiness, he only looked to share.
He was looking for somebody who was never there, life was just unfair.

Not even the God would listen to his prayer.
He shouted, he yelled, told everyone to stay away, he is dangerous, beware.
He’d change his fate, own it and say bye bye to the feeling of despair.
At last, he looked for something, not someone, who would allow him to breathe fresh air.

Phases of life!

Looking far away at a scenery I imagine how my life turned out to be.
Never guessed what was coming, perplexed I am at the current scenario.
I remember those days when I was a kid and played Nintendo-Super Mario.
Those were the days when melodious tunes and songs needed a stereo.

Things have changed, my fate is strange.
Faces have fade, memories we exchanged.
Everything is new, new life begins here.
Anyone tries to intervene will need courage to do this dare.

Success, failures and attempts we make, everything I’ll share.
Be with me always, you’ll develop empathy and care.
A flood of emotions and feelings will cover our bonding.
The relationship will grow as smooth as a cotton candy.

Looking forward to the future, I am.
It’ll be full of hurdles, irritating just like a traffic jam.
Hard work will bring happiness, just like it does after a final exam.
It’ll make us stronger, inner strength will grow, world will call us a champion!

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Desire!

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My new music track!

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So here I have made another track called “Desire”. I named it so because I liked the name and somehow, this was the first word which came to my mind after I listened to this track of mine. Anyway, I had to give it a name so let it be!
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