My queen

I keep on waiting for you to arrive

Your smile makes me feel alive.

Your eyes hide so many secrets

I want to know what’s hidden in there.

 

I never felt this way before

Until I saw you and met a beautiful soul

You’re a diamond among dull stones

I admire you so much,

You might never get to know.

 

Keep moving forward, the world is yours

I’ll stay here and remain indoors

All my troubles, I won’t allow to be seen

I will live like a slave but will make you my queen.

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We don’t talk

We don’t talk like we used to talk
I still think about you when I listen to a sad song.
Some things were right, some wrong.
You were too at fault, believe it or not.

When you were in trouble I was there.
Where are you when I needed you to be here?
Forgot about me too quickly,
I wanted to be with you but lost you so suddenly.

I put my trust in someone I shouldn’t have.
Spent time with you and had uncontrollable laughs.
Made a mistake and stayed too long
You’re the constant reminder I did everything wrong.

Got to be with you but lost some friends
Friendship was forever, this relationship had its end.
Forgot the value of worthy people in life
Painful memories are like a stab with knife.

I can sense a new day is around the corner
Days are shorter and nights are longer
Light gets dimmer and this room gets darker.
I no longer have the person who made me feel stronger.

19 and still counting

Still the young remains alive in me
Wondering what’s next, lying under a tree.
Feels refreshing to taste the sweet afternoon tea,
Then dreaming about the Caribbean sea.

Still watch the stars at night,
As I forget about my fear of height.
All the rushing sounds around me,
Yet I remain calm and quiet.

Still 19 and have a lot to see,
Haven’t grown up completely.
Yesterday I was just a kid,
I remember all the wrong things I did.

Still there are endless possibilities,
If only we believe in our own abilities.
The melancholic melodies are so soothing,
As it reminds us of the things we have lost and losing.

Ache in Pain

I am so hurt by you
Even my pain has its own ache.
I miss you so much
Want to see you once again!
Mistakes done by you
Still I’ll take all the blame.
You’re sometimes as cold as ice
But your anger is like touching hot
flames.

I freeze when I see you
and burn when I don’t.
I don’t want to be jealous
But it’s not my faut, it’s yours.
You make me feel that way
I have so much to think
and nothing to say.

Stop pretending

Stop pretending everything’s fine.

Others don’t give a damn neither a dime.

Life struggles are reality, not a sin or a crime.

It’s hard to keep it in,

When everything falls apart and nothing’s fine.

 

I see others having fun and enjoying.

I just wish all those good things and happiness were mine.

But I am left here, sitting in a small dark room crying.

 

Wipe the tears flowing from your eyes.

Happy endings are not true, those are lies.

Somebody save me, these inner demons will finish me and lead to my demise.

Even if it happens, I won’t be surprised.

I am used to it now, I won’t go down but I’ll rise.

The only option is to climb upwards.

There is nothing at the end if I go downwards.

 

Shoot for the moon and hit the stars,

Just to see how much can I travel.

Will I end up here or go too far?

 

It’s not about reaching the stars,

It’s all about healing those scars.

I suffered from reckless pain back then,

So I will not give up until I breathe or unless I am dead.

 

Stop pretending things were fine always.

There is nothing to be afraid of and you have already found solace.

You have a family and loads of friends,

nothing to lose and nothing to gain.

 

Things don’t work like that though,

Reality is real, even if you want it to be unreal, it sometimes seems surreal.

On the surface, nothing is dirty, everything is clear.

 

Hoping things will get better soon,

‘Cause I feel relaxed and content,

only once in a blue moon.

 

Trying to think outside the box.

Trying to be as clever as a fox.

Trying to climb up on the longest wall.

Trying to defy all the odds.

 

Hope is there as it has always been.

I wish to see those things which I have never seen.

Be as noble as I can get, as noble as no one has ever been.

 

Don’t have a debt under your belt.

It’s hard to repay and impossible to forget.

Lagging behind you is not an option.

Nagging you constantly is only the solution.

 

I imagine doing things that no one does.

Imagine thinking those things to whom all that never occurs.

Imagine saying things aloud but only find myself whisper.

This life is a struggle, man! It’s a roller coaster.

 

Don’t waste it on blame games.

No use calling each other lame names.

Focus on your main aim

Haters will have nothing to say but display shame.

That’s when you know you’re a winner.

You’re a real life hero and not a hero in fiction.

 

 

 

 

Not too late to say sorry..

It’s not about being a star.

It’s about healing those scars,

Which I faced during my childhood.

 

When I had to be glad for what I never had.

When I had to be sad for what I always had.

All I wanted to have good times.

Maybe asking for that was another crime.

 

I never wanted to become a maniac.

Do you think I wanted to stay insomniac?

You don’t know how I lived through those years.

Neither I wish you could imagine what I had always feared.

 

Let’s make a fresh start.

Show me unconditional positive regard.

Say that you love me now.

I promise it is not too late to say sorry now.

Broken promises..

Sometimes we fought.
Sometimes we cried.
But it was me, most of the time,
Who had to suffer on all those dreadful nights.

We made promises.
We’d never deal with irreparable damages.
We’d stand by each other in difficult times.
Now I see, all those were such laughable lies.

You were tired of my vociferous rants.
I thought you’d stay with me,but you can’t.
All your problems were mine when we met.
Every moment I spent with you are now full of regret.

I didn’t want to say all these things to you.
But, I need to speak up now before I bid adieu.
These words are coming out of the blue.
I am leaving you now to move ahead, to find someone new.

Green grass looking greener than ever…

Green grass looking greener than ever.
Brightness in the sky like a diamond is shining from heaven.
Smell of fresh air in the atmosphere; vanishes depression.
Cold wind ruffles my hair, I feel alive and I forget about my aggression.

I trudge toward a castle.
I hope it is not a mirage.
I feel awake and energetic, as if someone just gave me a massage.
Heavenly feeling covers me from head to toe.

Am I tired or is it something else?
I do not know.
If I am worried, I promise to myself I won’t let it show.
My throat dries, my muscles cries.
In the middle of a desert, I die.

The sensation is as good as drinking water on a hot sunny day.
I forget about all the worries I possessed once every day.
But I cannot forget my dear loved ones.
I feel relaxed as if I am sleeping on a cloud.
All the outrage fades away, I feel no temptation to shout.

I walk faster than before, no longer trudging to reach my goal.
I can see a light towards the end of that tunnel.
Am I finally entering into heaven?
I walk faster and the tunnel seems so near now.
Just then I walk past through it.
I see my loved ones standing there.

I reach them and open my mouth.
No sound comes out and I am thrown back to an old house.
It looks unpleasant and an eerie look about it frightens me to death.
But even though I am already dead, I am still scared of death.

Maybe I am not dead.
I open my eyes once again.
A twinkling light hits my eyes.
My family looks at me and cries.
I realize I am still alive.
I was so near to death yet I survived.
I am glad; I have another chance to live my life

I’ll always love you..

You’re on my mind.
You’re in my heart.
Never ever shall we truly part.

You’re in my dreams.

You’re my happiness.
When I am with you.
I’m at my best.

My smile is wide.
My life is complete.
Whenever I have you here next to me.

You’re always in my thoughts.
Always on my mind.
And that’s how it will be.
Until the end of time.

Poetry can’t explain it.
Music can’t even touch.
The deepest emotions I feel at your touch.

I know you love me,
As much as I love you.
I can feel it,
When I’m next to you.

The minutes are hours.
The hours seem like days.
Before I can bask in
your presence and ways.

I love you, no matter if you believe it or not,
It will always be true.
Until eternity,
I’ll always love you.

Lying underneath the stars…

Lying underneath the stars,
On a warm silent night.
Your arms are wrapped around me,
And everything feels right.

You kiss me sweetly and softly,
I feel your warm gentle touch,
You help me feel protected
Under the sweet night sky rush.

My world is perfect.
There’s nowhere else I want to be,
just want to lie down underneath the stars
Hand in hand, you and me.

Just when everything is perfect,
And you seem so delicately sweet,
A rush of wind ruffles my hair
As the floor beneath my feet slides down, taking me into a deep sea.

I am drowning into it, but I am not afraid because you’re there beside me.

We will be together for eternity

starry night