Edge of the Bridge

I move along with time in despair
Wish I can be content, that’s my only prayer
An update is needed in my software
You tell me not to act like a robot,
But what if it’s just my only goal?
I don’t need counseling or someone who wants to console
‘Cause I stopped caring years ago
I don’t care, I have sold my soul
Or maybe someone came and stole
The heart that I once had made of gold,
It’s not in my possession
Life happened and it taught me a lesson

Never let your emotions come out
To the world ’cause it doesn’t care
You got to face the obstacles
Life isn’t fair
I look like a human from the outside just like you
But you don’t really know me, you haven’t walked in my shoes
I was the only one who pulled myself through
Now I look back at my life and try to review
There were so many opportunities that I blew
Not that I did not knew
But I was naive enough not to know their value

So now I stand at the edge of the bridge
Pondering the thought of jumping and be finished
Or maybe give it a chance and give my life a meaning
Find the joy in something and start living
The idea is a scary phenomenon
It’s a long journey though, soon I’ll be twenty one
I try to put a smile on your face
But I fail to write sentences that are articulate

I use a language that is straight
No beating around the bush, that’s insane
Get to the point and say what you want to say
A night is a night and a day is a day
No matter how I say it, it’ll remain the same
I just want to convey
I only know how to express only in this particular way
Plenty of events wait ahead
It’ll be no fun without a friend
Till then I’ll be killing my time
Find different ways to express myself and make them rhyme

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My queen

I keep on waiting for you to arrive

Your smile makes me feel alive.

Your eyes hide so many secrets

I want to know what’s hidden in there.

 

I never felt this way before

Until I saw you and met a beautiful soul

You’re a diamond among dull stones

I admire you so much,

You might never get to know.

 

Keep moving forward, the world is yours

I’ll stay here and remain indoors

All my troubles, I won’t allow to be seen

I will live like a slave but will make you my queen.

On an empty road

On an empty road at midnight
A boy walked alone wishing someone would say “Hi!”
Hug him and tell him not to cry
“I am here to be your friend, no worries and no good bye.”

Stay honest and loyal to him
He’ll be there for you when no one else will.
Deep down he knew he had a pure heart
Still people didn’t want to be with him and they torn him apart.

Suffering had become a norm to him
The pain was intense like he had recently hit the gym.
His future looked so dark and grim
He knew he had to hold on, keep going on and swim.

Then came a young beautiful lady, charming like a princess
He thought he had found his love, now he was fearless.
The only problem was that he had to let go of his shyness.
It was his trait so all his efforts went in vain.

The young lady did not return his love
He was left heart broken but knew he didn’t need her
Moving on was the only option left for him
But the pain was so intense
He found himself lingering on an empty road once again.

Stop pretending

Stop pretending everything’s fine.

Others don’t give a damn neither a dime.

Life struggles are reality, not a sin or a crime.

It’s hard to keep it in,

When everything falls apart and nothing’s fine.

 

I see others having fun and enjoying.

I just wish all those good things and happiness were mine.

But I am left here, sitting in a small dark room crying.

 

Wipe the tears flowing from your eyes.

Happy endings are not true, those are lies.

Somebody save me, these inner demons will finish me and lead to my demise.

Even if it happens, I won’t be surprised.

I am used to it now, I won’t go down but I’ll rise.

The only option is to climb upwards.

There is nothing at the end if I go downwards.

 

Shoot for the moon and hit the stars,

Just to see how much can I travel.

Will I end up here or go too far?

 

It’s not about reaching the stars,

It’s all about healing those scars.

I suffered from reckless pain back then,

So I will not give up until I breathe or unless I am dead.

 

Stop pretending things were fine always.

There is nothing to be afraid of and you have already found solace.

You have a family and loads of friends,

nothing to lose and nothing to gain.

 

Things don’t work like that though,

Reality is real, even if you want it to be unreal, it sometimes seems surreal.

On the surface, nothing is dirty, everything is clear.

 

Hoping things will get better soon,

‘Cause I feel relaxed and content,

only once in a blue moon.

 

Trying to think outside the box.

Trying to be as clever as a fox.

Trying to climb up on the longest wall.

Trying to defy all the odds.

 

Hope is there as it has always been.

I wish to see those things which I have never seen.

Be as noble as I can get, as noble as no one has ever been.

 

Don’t have a debt under your belt.

It’s hard to repay and impossible to forget.

Lagging behind you is not an option.

Nagging you constantly is only the solution.

 

I imagine doing things that no one does.

Imagine thinking those things to whom all that never occurs.

Imagine saying things aloud but only find myself whisper.

This life is a struggle, man! It’s a roller coaster.

 

Don’t waste it on blame games.

No use calling each other lame names.

Focus on your main aim

Haters will have nothing to say but display shame.

That’s when you know you’re a winner.

You’re a real life hero and not a hero in fiction.

 

 

 

 

You’re at a better place

Loss of a close one is something through which all of us go through at some point. It is a part of life which is unavoidable.

Recently, I was the victim of this suffering and all of our family members and our loved ones were devastated to see an inspirational, loving and caring person leaving us unexpectedly.

He was someone who loved all of us. He had his priorities sorted out and knew what was best for his family and always gave a helping hand to all of us.

I remember since I was a kid he was the one who always pampered me a lot. Probably due to the fact that I was the youngest in the family and I had always been a quiet kid who did not cause much trouble.

I have a lot of memories when he showed me how much he cared about me. For instance, on my 3rd birthday, he brought a cake for me shaped as a helicopter and he helped me cut it into pieces.

That is just one instance where he showed the love and care for me.

Sometimes when I am alone, his absence hits me very hard. It is the first time I have felt how it feels to actually lose a close one with whom you had happy memories. It feels surreal to think that he’s actually gone. I do not want to believe it but it’s true.

Although, when I got to know he had departed the planet, while being shell shocked I felt as if he’s at a better place.

It was an astonishing tragedy but my intuitive feel just said that he is at a better place. Why did I feel that? I don’t know but we will always hope this is true.

Few hours ago, I was having a conversation with a facebook friend and I wrote this quote to him. After writing that message, the motivation to write a blog post about it ignited within me. So here is the quote:

“I know. We can’t stop working. That is not the way to go about all this. We must continue our life and see it as a life changing event. Pledge to always do well wherever we go and keep the loved ones in our heart and remember the things they taught us and the love and care they gave us and has been giving us”.

P.S- He was my dad’s elder brother.

Whenever I look at you..

Whenever I look at you,

I feel like my guts are doing a somersault.

Whenever I look at you,

I feel like my heart starts to sing a super hit song.

Whenever I look at you,

I feel like I can see you through this dense fog.

Whenever I look at you,

I feel all my troubles are fading away.

Whenever I look at you,

My bad day turns into a good day.

Whenever I look at you,

All my dreams come true.

Whenever I look at you,

I become rigid like a statue.

Your love is divine and pure,

You’ve a heart of gold, I am sure.

The more I look at you,

The more I feel I should be closer to you.

Far away in the stars..

Far away in the stars I sit.
Way beyond anyone’s dreams.
Look out for me and see above,
For you’ll only find me when you look up.

I have got to go and see the galaxy.
Broken the shackles, no more mundane activities.
New adventure is out there, waiting for me.
So I’ll go now and fetch myself a sublime dream.

A shimmering shoreline is ahead of me.
Gentle tides wavers my worries.
Voice of an angel sounds so soothing.
Watching beauty of the nature is amusing.

Sunset gives me a new hope.
I am assured there’ll be a new day coming for sure.
I want to meet my future self soon.
Till then, reverie will make me stay on the moon.

10 New Tongue twisters compilation

1-Derek did a deed deliberately indeed to deliver the decorated door to Danny before dawn.

2-Brandon being a bad boy brought a bat to Boston to break the bones of bad boys to belittle the biased blatant bad boys.

3-Aaron argued and asked Ashton to assure Amy arrest Amber as Ashton argued and asked Aaron to be anonymous.

4-He held her hands and had a hat on his head while heading her to a hamlet and hand her a handbag.

5-Ron ran in the rain to drain his insane pain to run back to his cave in midst of rain to read readily the reality of rain.

6- Shrink the sink to fit two sinks, shuffle two shabby sinks to the side of a shabby sink to avoid a sin.

7- See the sun, sing a song to son, show son sun the sunshine of shimmering sun.

8-How to clean a car carrying a cunning caretaker coming from a city to take care of another caretaker carrying a carefree cat?

9- Six clicks within a blink, lick a chick, pick a stick, kick the chick, lick a chick, throw a brick, within a blink.

10-Sam sings a sonnet solemnly as a sacred secret surrounding a shadow of several sins setting Sam to sleep and surrender.