Rainy days

I still remember those rainy days,

When nights were better than those regular days.

Being alone never made me feel lonely.

I did have a friend and that was me; one and only.

 

Dusk seemed brighter and more peaceful than dawn.

I am still  here but those  moments have long gone.

All the right things now seem wrong.

Late at night, I  am  wandering in this empty lawn.

 

Walking underneath this starry night.

I wait for an unexpected miracle to strike.

Reality is not a fairy tale,

I keep walking as I wish to confront my fate.

 

Hope keeps us strong and alive.

Till the day comes when we face our  demise.

A sad reality looms over us and wait for arrival,

As we fight and struggle everyday for our survival.

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Stop pretending

Stop pretending everything’s fine.

Others don’t give a damn neither a dime.

Life struggles are reality, not a sin or a crime.

It’s hard to keep it in,

When everything falls apart and nothing’s fine.

 

I see others having fun and enjoying.

I just wish all those good things and happiness were mine.

But I am left here, sitting in a small dark room crying.

 

Wipe the tears flowing from your eyes.

Happy endings are not true, those are lies.

Somebody save me, these inner demons will finish me and lead to my demise.

Even if it happens, I won’t be surprised.

I am used to it now, I won’t go down but I’ll rise.

The only option is to climb upwards.

There is nothing at the end if I go downwards.

 

Shoot for the moon and hit the stars,

Just to see how much can I travel.

Will I end up here or go too far?

 

It’s not about reaching the stars,

It’s all about healing those scars.

I suffered from reckless pain back then,

So I will not give up until I breathe or unless I am dead.

 

Stop pretending things were fine always.

There is nothing to be afraid of and you have already found solace.

You have a family and loads of friends,

nothing to lose and nothing to gain.

 

Things don’t work like that though,

Reality is real, even if you want it to be unreal, it sometimes seems surreal.

On the surface, nothing is dirty, everything is clear.

 

Hoping things will get better soon,

‘Cause I feel relaxed and content,

only once in a blue moon.

 

Trying to think outside the box.

Trying to be as clever as a fox.

Trying to climb up on the longest wall.

Trying to defy all the odds.

 

Hope is there as it has always been.

I wish to see those things which I have never seen.

Be as noble as I can get, as noble as no one has ever been.

 

Don’t have a debt under your belt.

It’s hard to repay and impossible to forget.

Lagging behind you is not an option.

Nagging you constantly is only the solution.

 

I imagine doing things that no one does.

Imagine thinking those things to whom all that never occurs.

Imagine saying things aloud but only find myself whisper.

This life is a struggle, man! It’s a roller coaster.

 

Don’t waste it on blame games.

No use calling each other lame names.

Focus on your main aim

Haters will have nothing to say but display shame.

That’s when you know you’re a winner.

You’re a real life hero and not a hero in fiction.

 

 

 

 

You’re at a better place

Loss of a close one is something through which all of us go through at some point. It is a part of life which is unavoidable.

Recently, I was the victim of this suffering and all of our family members and our loved ones were devastated to see an inspirational, loving and caring person leaving us unexpectedly.

He was someone who loved all of us. He had his priorities sorted out and knew what was best for his family and always gave a helping hand to all of us.

I remember since I was a kid he was the one who always pampered me a lot. Probably due to the fact that I was the youngest in the family and I had always been a quiet kid who did not cause much trouble.

I have a lot of memories when he showed me how much he cared about me. For instance, on my 3rd birthday, he brought a cake for me shaped as a helicopter and he helped me cut it into pieces.

That is just one instance where he showed the love and care for me.

Sometimes when I am alone, his absence hits me very hard. It is the first time I have felt how it feels to actually lose a close one with whom you had happy memories. It feels surreal to think that he’s actually gone. I do not want to believe it but it’s true.

Although, when I got to know he had departed the planet, while being shell shocked I felt as if he’s at a better place.

It was an astonishing tragedy but my intuitive feel just said that he is at a better place. Why did I feel that? I don’t know but we will always hope this is true.

Few hours ago, I was having a conversation with a facebook friend and I wrote this quote to him. After writing that message, the motivation to write a blog post about it ignited within me. So here is the quote:

“I know. We can’t stop working. That is not the way to go about all this. We must continue our life and see it as a life changing event. Pledge to always do well wherever we go and keep the loved ones in our heart and remember the things they taught us and the love and care they gave us and has been giving us”.

P.S- He was my dad’s elder brother.